It's official.

I'm losing my mind, You know it's been hard these last couple of months. I lost someone out of my life who I'm in love with and day in and day out I still think about them. I've tried to rearrange some things so that maybe I won't think about them.

I told you about the radio, certain songs..etc. And this morning as I was typing an email, you know how a few addresses pop up that's in the cookies and guess what- it was his. I sighed and went on with my morning. Four hours go by...

Then here I am typing some "financial notes" up on an account.

The word I'm trying to type: Horizon.

I proof read my notes before I hit save and what did I type?

His full name.

I'm staring and staring at the notes like wtf is going on here and why does this look weird.....

Um, maybe because I wrote: add to Secure {insert his first name here}, instead  add to Secure Horizons...
I'm going crazy. I miss him. I'm in love with him. I think subconciously my vagina may be waiting for him.
I want to email him, I can't. I want to call him, I can't.What am I supposed to do?

Realize he's no longer a part of my life and that he doesn't love me.