12 posts tagged “loathe”
At 9:27PM tonight, I found myself asking the question...what was there to love about today exactly? I'm not sure I can even bullet point love/& loathe for you right now. I'mma try but then I might fuckin narrate in between! Ugh..
I woke up this morning with this in mind. Do something positive and different today and start living a "life".But then we had this emergency meeting today and all of sudden I found my solo plans of doing something exciting cancelled. Guess I gotta start my life another day...
Loathe:
I worked 11 hours today.
Because I still seem sick at work, they made me wear a mask.
3 totally different people told me over the past 2 days that I need to get laid and it's only Tuesday.
My toes is jacked.
I'm too tired to cook.
I'm too tired to go to the grocery store.
I may work 11 hours tomorrow.
I don't think I'll get a day off until next week.
I felt fat today. Fat and wearing a mask...Hmm, sexy shit, yo....
I ran only 20 minutes cuz I'm fucking TIRED.
It rained.
It continued to rain.
It poured.
My last 2 periods were faint and light and today it was a bloody fuckin ugh!..I thought my fucking vagina was caving in on me
The fact that someone would even think of telling their "marriage" therapist about me.
Fuckin dumb-asses
Fuckin dumb asses who don't know how to drive shit in the rain.
Fuckin dumb asses who are just fuckin dumb.
I tried to fart earlier and it was stuck in my asshole.
The fact I don't have time to get drunk and drunk dial or drunk text Mr. Cali so I'm contemplating "delirious after 11 hour work day" emailing his ass to tell him I love him....we don't know if it's right or wrong but we gotta loathe the shit anyways...
Love:
The fact that some of the events in the past few days have proven to me that I am not vunerable and I'm not a fuckin dumb ass.
Should I start with love or loathe???????
Love: on a positive note...
- The email my friend sent me trying to convince me the West Coast is doomed, the Pinoys in California are gangsta's and I may run into Sasquatch because I live Seattle..so therefore I should move to the East Coast.
- Gabby is using the potty and more importantly, telling me when she needs to go. Bye bye shitty diapers.
- Vegas is now 2 weeks away.
- I went to the gym after one week of being glued to my bed and bottles of syrupy medicines that didn't even help.
- I found the strength to make a single mom decision to throw Gabby's party anyways despite her father and I proudly said "fuck him"....
- The sandwich I scarfed down today...a panini with ham, jarlsburg cheese, garlic mustard.....*burp
- The fact his shirt still has a slight scent of him.
Loathe:
- I've been dreaming about him lately.
- I need a pedicure.
- My hips hurt from Sunday's run still.
- I need new shoes.
- I could use a new hairstyle.
Love:
My achieved my goals at work and exceeded them by 8%. At least I know my exhaustion is worth it.
The mint tea I drank this morning.
Loathe:
The fact I had to clear my schedule this week because I'm so drained and so fucking pooped that I'm sleeping like 10 hours a night.
I cried over Mr.Cali today.
Bitterness
The sooner I go to sleep...the sooner I'm one day closer to the month of May.....
Let's start with Loathe...
Loathe:
The fact that I've typed about 20 emails to him but have sent 0.
My hair lately.
My depression is catching up with me.
The kick boxing class tonight. the system was broken...the teacher was stressin, well she still taught a good class!
I've cried so much over the past few days my eyelids look permanently damaged.
Love:
The DKNY jacket I bought at a thrift store for 9.99.
The H&M jacket that I got last week (at a thrift store for 19.99) but wore today and looked hot...
My skin looks good today.
The lip gloss color I bought.
The turkey tomato basil dish I made and ate for lunch today...God, it was tasty.
The fact we're booked for New York and now we just need to decide do we want to share a bathroom or have our own...hmmm...
Better late than never..
Love:
my legs in shorts
my breasts in a padded bra
the email my friend sent me at work..well actually there were 2 emails...one made me LOL and other was that our other home chick from Canada will be joining us for Vegas madness....
I ate healthy today
No one stole my brie and I ate the whole thing by myself within 3 days of course
Loathe:
lack of sleep
the left side of my back hurts
I cried myself to sleep last night
I miss him
I tried to pour my heart to him via email and well...
negativity
Love:
- The dress I saw in this boutique near my work.
- What the dress did for my booty.
- It stopped raining.
- The girls at Starbucks knew my drink when I walked up.
- Gabby was kickin it in the daycare at the gym.
- Gabby ate all her dinner.
- I only worked 8 hours today.
- My spaghetti sauce was really good.
Loathe:
- I looked a little bloated in my dress.
- It was cold.
- I have sleepless nights.
- I miss him.
I love the fact I banged out so many accounts the past 2 days at work but I loathe the fact the report I asked for from my boss is literally 700 pages. Be careful what you ask for...Love productivity and OT, loathe looking at the stack of work....
Love the fact Flava Flav makes his bitches wear clocks around their neck so they know what time it is.
Love my workout tonight. Loathe the fact I'm really horny afterwards. Better start loving my hand.
Love my lunch today...shredded chicken with garlic, onion, sweet peppers, salt, pepper, cumin with Cous Cous and sliced avocado. Yes, I made it!
Loathe my lack of sleep.
Love that I have cable and I can watch reality shows.
Love that the sun came out today.
How can I write about a day when I haven't even started it yet?
Simple.Because somehow I know how my day will go.I already woke up sad that I didn't hear from him and angry that I ate more fried chicken for dinner.
Love:
Wishful thinking
Loathe:
Reality
Since I've had my heart broken recently, I'm just gonna loathe. Please neighborhood bare with me...
Loathe:
Distance
The fact that I may never be with someone I love.
The fact that I can't tell my friends what has happened yet because I start crying.
The fact that I saw him a little over 7-8 days ago and we were fine.
The fact that I didn't need to hear" your my girl", I just wanted to know I was special in his life.
I have a plane ticket to go there in April and I'm not ready to cancel it yet because honestly,I'd love to see him
it seems relationships are over rated and no one seems to want them anymore.
I'm scared he won't be in my life and then one day just like the fucking movies, I will run into his ass at a airport or something and I will fall in love all over again.
more loathing...
my cramps
my hair after the gym
I ate 3 fried chicken strips for dinner
my shoulders hurt
gas prices are rising
Love:
My vagina is still in tact after my workout, whether it works I'm not sure.
I saw more pubes in the locker room and speedos in the hot tub...ew,hahahaha......
Is it really Tuesday?
Love:
- The weather cooperated with me in the afternoon.
- Gabby is adjusting to her new daycare.
- My spaghetti sauce was really good today.
- My parents shower has a good supply of hot water so I can shave my armpits and legs more often.
Loathe:
- That my loathe list will be longer than my love list.
- I'm tired.
- Gabby didn't touch her dinner.
- I look like a train wreck.
- I feel bloated.
- I need to go to the gym even though I've taught 2 times this week.
- I was trying to save money this week by bringing lunch and its 2 of my co-workers birthdays and they wanna go out for lunch.
- I haven't been to Trader Joe's in awhile
